The War Inside My Womb

Living with Endometriosis.

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Hi, my name is Lilly and I live with endometriosis. And while endometriosis is apart of my story, it does not define me. Through this blog, I share the painful, messy and sometimes hopeful reality of living with this chronic illness. By speaking honestly about both the struggles and the small victories, I hope to bring light to the dark and remind others that they are never alone in this fight.

Every day is a fight. Not just against the pain, the bleeding, and the exhaustion, but against being dismissed. Against being told it is nothing. Against feeling invisible when I know something is wrong. I do not have all the answers. I am not here to pretend I know it all. I am here to tell the truth. To share what this disease really feels like in a body and in a life. I am writing because I do not want anyone else to feel as alone as I have. If you are struggling too, I want you to know you are seen. You are not imagining it. You are not weak. And you are not alone.

Packed and Waiting.

The bags are packed. Everything is ready. Tomorrow morning, I leave for Brisbane.

This weekend the pain has been relentless, each wave crashing over me like a cruel reminder of why this surgery is so necessary. My body is exhausted, my mind stretched thin, and now the nerves have begun to creep in. They catch me in the quiet moments, dragging myself through the shops to make sure I have everything I need, zipping up the last bag, double checking the paperwork, sitting still long enough to feel the weight of what’s coming.

This stage of waiting is emotional. The mix of fear and hope sits heavy on my chest. There are tears close to the surface, not from weakness but from the reality of walking into another operating room. The last one gave me two years of life I never thought I’d get back, and I am holding onto that memory with everything I have.

Tonight, I am breathing through the nerves and clinging to hope. Tomorrow begins the next step of this journey. I don’t know exactly what the outcome will be, but I know this: I am ready.

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